Memoirs of a Modern Gypsy

So, I have decided that I am a modern gypsy. I reject stability and the life I am "suppossed" to want to strive for. Happiness and success are different to me than most other people. I want to make my life memorable for me and the things that I want to do. I just can't conform to society's idea of what my life should be. I told my mother a long time ago that my life is going to be very different than her life. I have very different ideas of what makes life special and fufilling.

I am living up here in this mountain enviroment and you could say I am sacrificing alot to be here, but i don't look at it that way. I feel that I have found the golden ticket here. I mean, a job that gives you 2 months off twice a year, I live here in very comfortable accommodations(to me anyway)and get all my food for a nominal fee. All I have to do here is concentrate on being a hard worker and then the reward is the time off. There is absolutely nothing for me to spend my money on here on a day to day basis, so it has helped my financial stability emensly.

I have so many adventures in my head for that time off , which is coming sooner than later. I am going to green build remodel my childhood playhouse into a bungalo for my self to stay in when I am around. I am going to Mexico in May to visit friends I have made here at the mountain. When I get "home" (sidenote-it took me only a few weeks to start calling this place home and not the other way around)to Port Orchard and Bremerton I am going to be a different person in that place. I live my life so differently now than I did when I was there. People laugh at me when I tell them the things I want to do with my life.

I want to travel and see this beautiful world that we get the privelage of living on. I want to meet new crazy, adventurous, gypsies like me, and I want to do it all with a zest for life and a positivity that people just can't seem to find in conventional life.

They say that the american dream is a good job, owning a home and having 2.5 children, and mabye it is for some people. I have a different plan in mind, and I am so excited!

One Night in Antarctica

So I did the coolest thing last night. I spent the night in a snow cave. I met a guy in the bar here and he and his 7 friends built and have stayed in a snow cave the last few nights. It was so neat to look at and way warmer than I thought it would be. The level of comfort left a bit to be desired, but hey, it was an adventure to me!

I totally hooked up with the guy too and we had absolutely mind blowing snow cave sex, probably the coolest (pardon the pun) place I have ever had sex. I may have just found a new extreme sport! Extreme Outdoor Sex! I love it, where to next? I will have to try pretty hard to top this.

"Love" and other expected disapointments...

So, really now. Again I have been lied to. Really, it isn't too much of a surprise. My subconcious has been telling me for days that this was not going to work out. I, again, in a time frame of 1 week, have fallen "in love" with another loser. They just keep getting worse as I go along, shouldn't I be getting wiser?

Well, at leaset I am getting quicker. It took me about 3-5 days to realize that this was not going to be a successful match. That is way better, considering my past brushes with "love".

I say "love", and mean just that, " ", the idea of love, but not the real thing. i always think it is the real thing, but alas. I am a compulsive descision maker. I take short periods of time and turn them into my be all end all. I compromise my plans for the plans that will further my co-dependent relationships. At least I am aware of this right?

I am so much more successfull, functional and healthy alone, so that is what I will be. I have been saying it for months, but now is the time. I have been tricked and fooled into being "in love" for the last time. I have a dynamic personality, I am very smart and I need to stop being vulnerable to this fucking shit! Done!

Run Away from Home!

I am living at a mountain for the winter and I love it. It has opened my mind and made me really think about things differently. As sad as it sounds, this is the farthest that I have lived away from my family and friends ever, and it's only 2 hours away.

Living up here in the serene beauty of nature has really had a possitive effect on my life. I have quit smoking cigarettes, I am living a very active life as far as excersise and physical activity go, I am a vegetarian, and most of all, i am really getting to know myself and am becoming more and more self aware and able to read my body.

Living where I did, in Bremerton(or Bummertown as i affectionaltly call it), I was a product of my enviroment. Living in a poor, run down sorry excuse for a town made me fell like a run down sorry excuse for a human being. I was overweight, unhealthy and could see myself slowly but surely slipping into the monotany of the enviroment I was being exposed to.

I had to get away. I found a wonderful job oppritunity through craigslist.com for seasonal work at Crystal Mountain Ski Resort, and let me tell you, getting away from Bremerton was the best thing I have ever done for myself. Things that were always such a hurdle for me to overcome before(ie: quitting smoking, over eating, and getting physical) have been so easy and rewarding to accomplish.

I have written this blog for anyone who is stuck in the negativity around them, and just want to break free! Do it! Do it now! Run away from home, it is the best thing i ever did!